She reached for the dog

Today was the first day that Maddie has reached out for, let alone noticed, Cowboy. I think this is a big milestone. She was sitting in her bumbo chair and he was sitting directly in front of her. She was reaching out her hand as far as she could trying so hard to touch him, but she couldn't reach. I grabbed my camera wanting to capture this important moment, but of course, the batteries were ran down and I couldn't take a pic. So, I am posting a pic of her sitting in her bumbo chair last week and you can just use your immagination that she was reaching for the dog.

I wish I had talent

I mean real talent. Yes, I'm a dancer, but I'm a very mediocre dancer. I have been working so hard in jazz and ballet class. I am busting my ass....literally. I'm risking injury every night because I am pushing my 32 year old body so hard. But I just hate the fact that I can't seem to get past just being an "ok dancer". I want to be good.....really good. A new girl joined our class this week and she an AMAZING dancer. I know I shouldn't compare myself to other people and I should measure my improvements from myself, but I am so jealous. I want to be that good. My turns are coming along, but I have trouble spotting. I honestly believe that if you do not learn how to spot when you are a young child (which of course I didn't) that it is practically impossible to learn it as an adult. I guess I should be happy with my skill level given that I didn't have any formal dance training until I was 23, but I just hate the fact that I could be so good if I had started as a kid. I am so getting Maddie into ballet as soon as she is 2 years old.

Oh how I need sleep

Maddie has not been sleeping well the past few days. I don't know if it is b/c she is sick or teething or what. I am so tierd, I don't know if I'm coming or going. Work is crazy busy and I am struggling to keep up the housework and workout and dance class, etc. Last night she went right to sleep, but she woke up at 3am, and kept waking up like every 30 min after that. I would give her the paci and she would go back to sleep for a little while, then wake up screaming again as soon as I was dozing back off. I am really worried that she is becoming too dependent on the paci. I want her to learn to fall asleep and stay asleep on her own. I don't know what to do. She has always been a great sleeper up until now. I really hope this is just a phase and it will pass. I am too stressed and tierd and I just wish I could feel refreshed and have energy again.